So, moving on from all the boring stuff, My start of the new year has been accompanied with a lot of reflections ( Surprise surprise! ) What I realised is that, no matter how "unnaive" I think I am, I'm just as naive. Do you get me? Well having turned 20 a few weeks ago, I really felt like it's time I took control of my opinions, becoming that outspoken opinionated girl when I was say, 15-18?
2008 and 2009 really took the opinions out of me, Life has been a struggle for me, and sometimes I feel like it would have been easier if I hadn't wanted to be perfect. I literally gave up ever fighting for what I know is right and what I wanted. Now, It's always me going, "FINE, whatever makes you happy."
I can't really even get angry at that fact anymore. Even as the new decade of the two-thousands rolled in my mind is just blank and the motivation and drive to do absolutely anything is absent. I'm still searching for the cause of this lost of direction and really, about me having an opinion.
But, it is just part of me becoming who I will be as an adult? That an Adult Naz would just want to go on with her life just fine, without the politics, without fighting for herself and just giving in and taking it day by day?
